Augustin: confessions 283


Book V.


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(He describes the twenty-ninth year of his age, in which, having discovered the fallacies of the Manichaeans, he professed rhetoric at Rome and Milan. Having heard Ambrosia, he begins to come to himself.

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Chapter I.裕hat It Becomes the Soul to Praise God, and to Confess Unto Him.

27 1). Accept the sacrifice of my confessions by the agency of my tongue, which Thou hast formed and quickened, that it may confess to Thy name; and heal Thou all my bones, and let them say, 鏑ord, who is like unto Thee?1 For neither does he who confesses to Thee teach Thee what may be passing within him, because: a dosed heart doth not exclude Thine eye, nor does man痴 hardness of heart repulse Thine hand, but Thou dissolvest it when Thou wiliest, either in pity or in vengeance, 殿nd there is no One who can hide himself from Thy heart.2 But let my soul praise Thee, that it may love Thee; and let it confess Thine own mercies to Thee, at it may praise Thee. Thy whole creation ceaseth not, nor is it silent in Thy praises溶either the spirit of man, by the voice directed unto Thee, nor animal nor corporeal things, by the voice of those meditating thereon;3 so that our souls may from their weariness arise towards Thee, leaning on those things which Thou hast made, and passing on to Thee, who hast made them Wonderfully and there is there refreshment and true strength.

Chapter II.涌n the Vanity of Those Who Wished to Escape the Omnipotent God.

2. Let the restless and the unjust depart and flee from Thee. Thou both seest them and distinguishest the shadows. And lo! all things with them are far, yet are they themselves foul.4 And how have they injured Thee?5 Or in what have they disgraced Thy government, which is just and perfect from heaven even to the lowest parts of the earth. For whither fled they when they fled from Thy presence?6 Or where dost Thou not find them? But they fled that they might not see Thee seeing them, and blinded might stumble against Thee;7 since Thou forsakest nothing that Thou hast made8 葉hat the unjust might stumble. against Thee, and justly be hurt,9 withdrawing themselves from Thy gentleness, and stumbling against Thine uprightness, and falling upon their own roughness. Forsooth, they know not that Thou art everywhere whom no place encompasseth, and that Thou alone art near even to those that re. move far from Thee.10 Let them, then, be converted and seek Thee; because not as they have forsaken their Creator hast Thou forsaken Thy creature. Let them be converted and seek Thee; and behold, Thou art there in their hearts, in the hearts of those who confess to Thee, and east themselves upon Thee, and weep on Thy bosom after their obdurate ways, even Thou gently wiping away their tears. And they weep the more, and rejoice in weeping, since Thou, O Lord, not man, flesh and blood, but Thou, Lord, who didst make, remakest and comfortest them. And where was I when I was seeking Thee? And Thou weft before me, but I had gone away even from myself; nor did I find myself, much less Thee!

Chapter III.幽aving Heard Faustus, the Most Learned Bishop of the Manichaeans, He Discerns that God, the Author Both of Things Animate and Inanimate, Chiefly Has Care for the Humble.

3. Let me lay bare before my God that twenty-ninth year of my age. There had at this time come to Carthage a certain bishop of the Manichaeans, by name Faustus, a great snare Of the devil, and in any were entangled by him through the allurement of his smooth speechthe which, although I did commend, yet could I separate from the truth of those things which I was eager to learn. Nor did I esteem the small dish of oratory so much as the science, which this their so praised Faustus placed before me to feed upon. Fame, indeed, had before Sen of him to me, as most skilled in all being learning, and pre-eminently skilled in the liberal sciences. And as I had read and retained in memory many injunctions of the philosophers, I used to compare some teachings of theirs with those long fables of the Manichaeans and the former things which they declared, who could only prevail so far as to estimate this lower world, while its lord they could by no means find out,11 seemed to me the more probable. For Thou art great, O Lord, and hast respect unto the lowly, but the proud Thou knowest afar off.12 Nor dost Thou draw near but to the contrite heart,13 nor art Thou found the proud,14 溶ot even could they number by cunning skill the stars and the sand, and measure the starry regions, and trace the courses of the planets.

4. For with their understanding and the capacity which Thou hast bestowed upon them they search out these things; and much have they found out, and foretold many years before,葉he eclipses of those luminaries, the sun and moon, on what day, at what hour, and from how many particular points they were likely to come. Nor did their calculation fail them; and it came to pass even as they foretold. And they wrote down the rules found out, which are read at this day; and from these others foretell in what year and in what month of the year, and on what day of the month, and at what hour of the day, and at what quarter of its light, either moon or sun is to be eclipsed, and thus it shall be even as it is foretold. And men who are ignorant of these things marvel and are amazed, and they that know them exult and are exalted; and by an impious pride, departing from Thee, and forsaking Thy light, they foretell a failure of the sun痴 light which is likely to occur so long before, but see not their own, which is now present. For they seek not religiously whence they have the ability where-with they seek out these things. And finding that Thou hast made them, they give not themselves up to Thee, that Thou mayest preserve what Thou hast made, nor sacrifice themselves to Thee, even such as they have made themselves to be; nor do they slay their own pride, as fowls of the air,15 nor their own curiosities, by which (like the fishes of the sea). they wander over the unknown paths of the abyss, nor their own extravagance, as the 澱easts of the field,16 that Thou, Lord, 殿 consuming fire,17 mayest burn up their lifeless cares and renew them immortally.

5. But the way裕hy Word,18 by whom Thou didst make these things which they number, and themselves who number, and the sense by which they perceive what they number, and the judgment out of which they number葉hey knew not, and that of Thy wisdom there is no number.19 But the Only-begotten has been 杜ade unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification,20 and has been numbered amongst us, and paid tribute to Caesar.21 This way, by which they might descend to Him from themselves, they knew not; nor that through Him they might ascend unto Him.22 This way they knew not, and they think themselves exalted with the stars23 and shining, and lo! they fell upon the earth,24 and 鍍heir foolish heart was darkened.25 They say many true things concerning the creature; but Truth, the Artificer of the creature, they seek not with devotion, and hence they find Him not. Or if they find Him, knowing that He is God, they glorify Him not as God, neither are they thankful,26 but become vain in their imaginations, and say that they themselves are wise,27 attributing to themselves what is Thine; and by this, with most perverse blindness, they desire to impute to Thee what is their own, forging lies against Thee who art the Truth, and changing the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man, and to birds, and four-fooled beasts, and creeping things,28 幼hanging Thy truth into a lie, and worshipping and serving the creature more than the Creator.29

6. Many truths, however, concerning the creature did I retain from these men, and the cause appeared to me from calculations, the succession of seasons, and the visible manifestations of the stars; and I compared them with the sayings of Manichaeus, who in his frenzy has written most extensively on these subjects, but discovered not any account either of the solstices, or the equinoxes, the eclipses of the luminaries, or anything of the kind I had learned in the books of secular philosophy. But therein I was ordered to believe, and yet it corresponded not with those rules acknowledged by calculation and my own sight, but was far different.

Chapter IV.裕hat the Knowledge of Terrestrial and Celestial Things Does Not Give Happiness, But the Knowledge of God Only.

7. Doth, then, O Lord God of truth, whosoever knoweth those things therefore please Thee? For unhappy is the man who knoweth all those things, but knoweth Thee not; but happy is he who knoweth Thee, though these he may not know.30 But he who knoweth both Thee and them is not the happier on account of them, but is happy on account of Thee only, if knowing Thee he glorify Thee as God, and gives thanks, and becomes not vain in his thoughts.31 But as he is happier who knows how to possess a tree, and for the use thereof renders thanks to Thee, although he may not know how many cubits high it is, or how wide it spreads, than he that measures it and counts all its branches, and neither owns it nor knows or loves its Creator; so a just man, whose is the entire world of wealth,32 and who, as having nothing, yet possesseth all things33 by cleaving unto Thee, to whom all things are subservient, though he know not even the circles of the Great Bear, yet it is foolish to doubt but that he may verily be better than he who can measure the heavens, and number the stars, and weigh the elements, but is forgetful of Thee, 努ho hast set in order all things in number, weight, and measure.34

Chapter V.涌f Manichaeus Pertinaciously Teaching False Doctrines, and Proudly Arrogating to Himself the Holy Spirit.

28 8. But yet who was it that ordered Manichaeus to write on these things likewise, skill in which was not necessary to piety? For Thou hast told man to behold piety ind wisdom,35 of which he might be in ignorance although having a complete knowledge of these other things; but since, knowing not these things, he yet most impudently dared to teach them, it is clear that he had no acquaintance with piety. For even when we have a knowledge of these worldly matters, it is folly to make a profession of them; but confession to Thee is piety. It was therefore with this view that this straying one spake much of these matters, that, standing convicted by those who had in truth learned them, the understanding that he really had in those more difficult things might be made plain. For he wished not to be lightly esteemed, but went about trying to persuade men 鍍hat the Holy Ghost, the Comforter and Enricher of Thy faithful ones, was with full authority personally resident in him.36 When, therefore, it was discovered that his teaching concerning the heavens and stars, and the motions of sun and moon, was false, though these things do not relate to the doctrine of religion, yet his sacrilegious arrogance would become sufficiently evident, seeing that not only did he affirm things of which he knew nothing, but also perverted them, and with such egregious vanity of pride as to seek to attribute them to himself as to a divine being.

9. For when I hear a Christian brother ignorant of these things, or in error concerning them, I can bear with patience to see that man hold to his opinions; nor can I apprehend that any want of knowledge as to the situation or nature of this material creation can be injurious to him, so long as he does not entertain belief in anything unworthy of Thee, O Lord, the Creator of all. But if he conceives it to pertain to the form of the doctrine of piety, and presumes to affirm with great obstinacy that whereof he is ignorant, therein lies the injury. And yet even a weakness such as this in the dawn of faith is borne by our Mother Charity, till the new man may grow up 砥nto a perfect man, and not be 田arried about with every wind of doctrine.37 But in him who thus presumed to beat once the teacher, author, head, and leader of all whom he could induce to believe this, so that all who followed him believed that they were following not a simple man only, but Thy Holy Spirit, who would not judge that such great insanity, when once it stood convicted of false teaching, should be abhorred and utterly cast off? But I had not yet clearly ascertained whether the changes of longer and shorter days and nights, and day and night itself, with the eclipses of the greater lights, and whatever of the like kind I had read in other books, could be expounded consistently with his words. Should I have found myself able to do so, there would still have remained a doubt in my mind whether it were so or no, although I might, on the strength of his reputed godliness,38 rest my faith on his authority.

Chapter VI.友austus Was Indeed an Elegant Speaker, But Knew Nothing of the Liberal Sciences.

10. And for nearly the whole of those nine years during which, with unstable mind, I had been their follower, I had been looking forward with but too great eagerness for the arrival of this same Faustus. For the other members of the sect whom I had chanced to light upon, when unable to answer the questions I raised, always bade me look forward to his coming, when, by discoursing with him, these, and greater difficulties if I had them, would be most easily and amply cleared away. When at last he did come, I found him to be a man of pleasant speech, who spoke of the very same things as they themselves did, although more fluently, and in better language. But of what profit to me was the elegance of my cup-bearer, since he offered me not the more precious draught for which I thirsted? My ears were already satiated with similar things; neither did they appear to me more conclusive, because better expressed; nor true, because oratorical; nor the spirit necessarily wise, because the face was comely and the language eloquent. But they who extolled him to me were not competent judges; and therefore, as he was possessed of suavity of speech, he appeared to them to be prudent and wise. Another sort of persons, however, was, I was aware, suspicious even of truth itself, if enunciated in smooth and flowing language. But me, O my God, Thou hadst already instructed by wonderful and mysterious ways, and therefore I believe that Thou instructedst me because it is truth; nor of truth is there any other teacher謡here or whencesoever it may shine upon us39 傭ut Thee. From Thee, therefore, I had now learned, that cause a thing is eloquently expressed, it should not of necessity seem to be true; nor, because uttered with stammering lips, should it be false nor, again, perforce true, because unskilfully delivered; nor consequently untrue, because the language is fine; but that wisdom and folly are as food both wholesome and unwholesome, and courtly or simple words as town-made or rustic vessels,預nd both kinds of food may be served in either kind of dish.

11. That eagerness, therefore, with which I had so long waited for this man was in truth delighted with his action and feeling when disputing, and the fluent and apt words with which he clothed his ideas. I was therefore filled with joy, and joined with others (and even exceeded them) in exalting and praising him. It was, however, a source of annoyance to me that was not allowed at those meetings of his auditors to introduce and impart40 any of those questions that troubled me in familiar exchange of arguments with him. When I might speak, and began, in conjunction with my friends, to engage his attention at such times as it was not unseeming for him to enter into a discussion with me, and had mooted such questions as perplexed me, I discovered him first to know nothing of the liberal sciences save grammar, and that only in an ordinary way. Having, however, read some of Tully痴 Orations, a very few books of Seneca and some of the poets, and such few volumes of his own sect as were written coherently in Latin, and being day by day practised in speaking, he so acquired a sort of eloquence, which proved the more delightful and enticing in that it was under the control of ready tact, and a sort of native grace. Is it not even as I recall, O Lord my God, Thou judge of my conscience? My heart and my memory are laid before Thee, who didst at that time direct me by the inscrutable mystery of Thy Providence, and didst set before my face those vile errors of mine, in order that I might see and loathe them.

Chapter VII.佑learly Seeing the Fallacies of the Manichaeans, He Retires from Them, Being Remarkably Aided by God.

12. For when it became plain to me that he was ignorant of those arts in which I had believed him to excel, I began to despair of his clearing up and explaining all the perplexities which harassed me: though ignorant of these, however, he might still have held the truth of piety, had he not been a Manichaean. For their books are full of lengthy fables41 concerning the heaven and stars, the sun and moon, and I had ceased to think him able to decide in a satisfactory manner what I ardently desired,謡hether, on comparing these things with the calculations I had read elsewhere, the explanations contained in the works of Manichaeus were preferable, or at any rate equally sound? But when I proposed that these subjects should be deliberated upon and reasoned out, he very modestly did not dare to endure the burden. For he was aware that he had no knowledge of these things, and was not ashamed to confess it. For he was not one of those loquacious persons, many of whom I had been troubled with, who covenanted to teach me these things, and said nothing; but this man possessed a heart, which, though not right towards Thee, yet was not altogether false towards himself. For he was not altogether ignorant of his own ignorance, nor would he without due consideration be inveigled in a controversy, from which he could neither draw back nor extricate himself fairly. And for that I was even more pleased with him, for more beautiful is the modesty of an ingenuous mind than the acquisition of the knowledge I desired,預nd such I found him to be in all the more abstruse and subtle questions.

13. My eagerness after the writings of Manichaeus having thus received a check, and despairing even more of their other teachers,seeing that in sundry things which puzzled me, he, so famous amongst them, had thus turned out,悠 began to occupy myself with him in the study of that literature which he also much affected, and which I, as Professor of Rhetoric, was then engaged in teaching the young Carthaginian students, and in reading with him either what he expressed a wish to hear, or I deemed suited to his bent of mind. But all my endeavours by which I had concluded to improve in that sect, by acquaintance with that man, came completely to an end: not that I separated myself altogether from them, but, as one who could find nothing better, I determined in the meantime upon contenting myself with what I had in any way lighted upon, unless, by chance, something more desirable should present itself. Thus that Faustus, who had entrapped so many to their death,溶either willing nor wilting it,溶ow began to loosen the snare in which I had been taken. For Thy hands, O my God, in the hidden design of Thy Providence, did not desert my soul; and out of the blood of my mother痴 heart, through the tears that she poured out by day and by night, was a sacrifice offered unto Thee for me; and by marvellous ways didst Thou deal with me.42 It was Thou, O my God, who didst it, for the steps of a man are ordered by the Lord, and He shall dispose his way.43 Or how can we procure salvation but from Thy hand, remaking what it hath made?

Chapter VIII.幽e Sets Out for Rome, His Mother in Vain Lamenting It.

14. Thou dealedst with me, therefore, that I should be persuaded to go to Rome, and teach there rather what I was then teaching at Carthage. And how I was persuaded to do this, I will not fail to confess unto Thee; for in this also the profoundest workings of Thy wisdom, and Thy ever present mercy to usward, must be pondered and avowed. It was not my desire to go to Rome because greater advantages and dignities were guaranteed me by the friends who persuaded me into this,預lthough even at this period I was influenced by these considerations,傭ut my principal and almost sole motive was, that I had been informed that the youths studied more quietly there, and were kept under by the control of more rigid discipline, so that they did not capriciously and impudently rash into the school of a master not their own, into whose presence they were forbidden to enter unless with his consent. At Carthage, on the contrary, there was amongst the scholars a shameful and intemperate license. They burst in rudely, and, with almost furious gesticulations, interrupt the system which any one may have instituted for the good of his pupils. Many outrages they perpetrate with astounding phlegm, which would be punishable by law were they not sustained by custom; that custom showing them to be the more worthless, in that they now do, as according to law, what by Thy unchangeable law will never be lawful. And they fancy they do it with impunity, whereas the very blindness whereby they do it is their punishment, and they suffer far greater things than they do. The manners, then, which as a student I would not adopt,44 I was compelled as a teacher to submit to from others; and so I was too glad to go where all who knew anything about it assured me that similar things were not done. But Thou, 杜y refuge and my portion in the land of the living,45 didst while at Carthage goad me, so that I might thereby be withdrawn from it, and exchange my worldly habitation for the preservation of my soul; whilst at Rome Thou, didst offer me enticements by which to attract me there, by men enchanted with this dying life,葉he one doing insane actions, and the, other making assurances of vain things; and, in order to correct my footsteps, didst secretly employ their and my perversity. For both they who disturbed my tranquillity were blinded by a shameful madness, and they who allured me elsewhere smacked of the earth. And I, who hated real misery here, sought fictitious happiness there.

15. But the cause of my going thence and going thither, Thou, O God, knewest, yet revealedst it not, either to me or to my mother, who grievously lamented my journey, and went with me as far as the sea. But I deceived her, when she violently restrained me either that she might retain me or accompany me, and I pretended that I had a friend whom I could not quit until he had a favourable wind to set sail. And I lied to my mother預nd such a mother!預nd got away. For this also Thou hast in mercy pardoned me, saving me, thus replete with abominable pollutions, from the waters of the sea, for the water of Thy grace, whereby, when I was purified, the fountains of mymother痴 eyes should be dried, from which for me she day by day watered the ground under her face. And yet, refusing to go back without me, it was with difficulty I persuaded her to remain that night in a place quite close to our ship, where there was an oratory46 in memory of the blessed Cyprian. That night I secretly left, but she was not backward in prayers and weeping. And what was it, O Lord, that she, with such an abundance of tears, was asking of Thee, but that Thou wouldest not permit me to sail? But Thou, mysteriously counselling and hearing the real purpose of her desire, granted not what she then asked, in order to make me what she was ever asking. The wind blew and filled our sails, and withdrew the shore from our sight; and she, wild with grief, was there on the morrow, and filled Thine ears with complaints and groans, which Thou didst disregard; whilst, by the means of my longings, Thou wert hastening me on to the cessation of all longing, and the gross part of her love to me was whipped out by the just lash of sorrow. But, like all mothers,葉hough even more than others,耀he loved to have me with her, and knew not what joy Thou weft preparing for her by my absence. Being ignorant of this, she did weep and mourn, and in her agony was seen the inheritance of Eve,耀eeking in sorrow what in sorrow she had brought forth. And yet, after accusing my perfidy and cruelty, she again continued her intercessions for me with Thee, returned to her accustomed place, and I to Rome.

29 Chapter IX.唯eing Attacked by Fever, He is in Great Danger.

16. And behold, there was I received by the scourge of bodily sickness, and I was descending into hell burdened with all the sins that I had committed, both against Thee, myself, and others, many and grievous, over and above that bond of original sin whereby we all die in Adam.47 For none of these things hadst Thou forgiven me in Christ, neither had He 殿bolished by His cross 鍍he enmity48 which, by my sins, I had incurred with Thee. For how could He, by the crucifixion of a phantasm,49 which I supposed Him to be? As true, then, was the death of my soul, as that of His flesh appeared to me to be untrue; and as true the death of His flesh as the life of my soul, which believed it not, was false. The fever increasing, I was now passing away and perishing. For had I then gone hence, whither should I have gone but into the fiery torments meet for my misdeeds, in the truth of Thy ordinance? She was ignorant of this, yet, while absent, prayed for me. But Thou, everywhere present, hearkened to her where she was, and hadst pity upon me where I was, that I should regain my bodily health, although still frenzied in my sacrilegious heart. For all that peril did not make me wish to be baptized, and I was better when, as a lad, I entreated it of my mother痴 piety, as I have already related and confessed.50 But I had grown up to my own dishonour, and all the purposes of Thy medicine I madly derided,51 who wouldst not suffer me, though such a one, to die a double death. Had my mother痴 heart been smitten with this wound, it never could have been cured. For I cannot sufficiently express the love she had for me, nor how she now travailed for me in the spirit with a far keener anguish than when she bore me in the flesh.

17. I cannot conceive, therefore, how she could have been healed if such a death of mine had transfixed the bowels of her love. Where then would have been her so earnest, frequent, and unintermitted prayers to Thee alone? But couldst Thou, most merciful God, despise the 田ontrite and humble heart52 of that pure and prudent widow, so constant in alms-deeds, so gracious and attentive to Thy saints, not permitting one day to pass without oblation at Thy altar, twice a day, at morning and even-tide, coming to Thy church without intermission溶ot for vain gossiping, nor old wives 吐ables,53 but in order that she might listen to Thee in Thy sermons, and Thou to her in her prayers?54 Couldst Thou裕hou by whose gift she was such妖espise and disregard without succouring the tears of such a one, wherewith she entreated Thee not for gold or silver, nor for any changing or fleeting good, but for the salvation of the soul of her son? By no means, Lord. Assuredly Thou wert near, and weft hearing and doing in that method in which Thou hadst predetermined that it should be done. Far be it from Thee that Thou shouldst delude her in those visions and the answers she had from Thee,耀ome of which I have spoken of,55 and others not,56 謡hich she kept57 in her faithful breast, and, always petitioning, pressed upon Thee as Thine autograph. For Thou, 澱ecause Thy mercy endureth for ever,58 condescendest to those whose debts Thou hast pardoned, to become likewise a debtor by Thy promises.

Chapter X.邑hen He Had Left the Manichaeans, He Retained His Depraved Opinions Concerning Sin and the Origin of the Saviour.

18. Thou restoredst me then from that illness, and made sound the son of Thy hand-maid meanwhile in body, that he might live for Thee, to endow him with a higher and more enduring health. And even then at Rome I joined those deluding and deluded 都aints; not their 塗earers only,熔f the number of whom was he in whose house I had fallen ill, and had recovered,傭ut those also whom they designate 典he Elect.59 For it still seemed to me 鍍hat it was not we that sin, but that I know not what other nature sinned in us.60 And it gratified my pride to be free from blame and, after I had committed any fault, not to acknowledge that I had done any,欄that Thou mightest heal my soul because it had sinned against Thee;61 but I loved to excuse it, and to accuse something else (I wot not what) which was with me, but was not I. But assuredly it was wholly I, and my impiety had divided me against myself; and that sin was all the more incurable in that I did not deem myself a sinner. And execrable iniquity it was, O God omnipotent, that I would rather have Thee to be overcome in me to my destruction, than myself of Thee to salvation! Not yet, therefore, hadst Thou set a watch before my mouth, and kept the door of my lips, that my heart might not incline to wicked speeches, to make excuses of sins, with men that work iniquity62 預nd, therefore, was I still united with their 摘lect.

19. But now, hopeless of making proficiency in that false doctrine, even those things with which I had decided upon contenting myself, providing that I could find nothing better, I now held more loosely and negligently. For I was half inclined to believe that those philosophers whom they call 鄭cademics63 were more sagacious than the rest, in that they held that we ought to doubt everything, and ruled that man had not the power of comprehending any truth; for so, not yet realizing their meaning, I also was fully persuaded that they thought just as they are commonly held to do. And I did not fail frankly to restrain in my host that assurance which I observed him to have in those fictions of which the works of Manichaeus are full. Notwithstanding, I was on terms of more intimate friendship with them than with others who were not of this heresy. Nor did I defend it with my former ardour; still my familiarity with that sect (many of them being concealed in Rome) made me slower64 to seek any other way,用articularly since I was hopeless of finding the truth, from which in Thy Church, O Lord of heaven and earth, Creator of all things visible and invisible, they had turned me aside,預nd it seemed to me most unbecoming to believe Thee to have the form of human flesh, and to be bounded by the bodily lineaments of our members. And because, when I desired to meditate on my God, I knew not what to think of but a mass of bodies65 (for what was not such did not seem to me to be), this was the greatest and almost sole cause of my inevitable error.

20. For hence I also believed evil to be a similar sort of substance, and to be possessed of its own foul and misshapen mass謡hether dense, which they denominated earth, or thin and subtle, as is the body of the air, which they fancy some malignant spirit crawling through that earth. And because a piety耀uch as it was幼ompelled me to believe that the good God never created any evil nature, I conceived two masses, the one opposed to the other, both infinite, but the evil the more contracted, the good the more expansive. And from this mischievous commencement the other profanities followed on me. For when my mind tried to revert to the Catholic faith, I was cast back, since what I had held to be the Catholic faith was not so. And it appeared to me more devout to look upon Thee, my God,葉o whom I make confession of Thy mercies,預s infinite, at least, on other sides, although on that side where the mass of evil was in opposition to Thee66 I was compelled to confess Thee finite, that if on every side I should conceive Thee to be confined by the form of a human body. And better did it seem to me to believe that no evil had been created by Thee謡hich to me in my ignorance appeared not only some substance, but a bodily one, because I had no conception of the mind excepting as a subtle body, and that diffused in local spaces葉han to believe that anything could emanate from Thee of such a kind as I considered the nature of evil to be. And our very Saviour Himself, also, Thine only-begotten,67 I believed to have been reached forth, as it were, for our salvation out of the lump of Thy most effulgent mass, so as to believe nothing of Him but what I was able to imagine in my vanity. Such a nature, then, I thought could not be born of the Virgin Mary without being mingled with the flesh; and how that which I had thus figured to myself could be mingled without being contaminated, I saw not. I was afraid, therefore, to believe Him to be born in the flesh, lest I should be compelled to believe Him contaminated by the flesh.68 Now will Thy spiritual ones blandly and lovingly smile at me if they shall read these my confessions; yet such was I.

Chapter XI.幽elpidius Disputed Well Against the Manichaeans as to the Authenticity of the New Testament.

21. Furthermore, whatever they had censured69 in Thy Scriptures I thought impossible to be defended; and yet sometimes, indeed, I desired to confer on these several points with some one well learned in those books, and to try what he thought of them. For at this time the words of one Helpidius, speaking and disputing face to face against the said Manichaeans, had begun to move me even at Carthage, in that he brought forth things from the Scriptures not easily withstood, to which their answer appeared to me feeble. And this answer they did not give forth publicly, but only to us in private,謡hen they said that the writings of the New Testament had been tampered with by I know not whom, who were desirous of ingrafting the Jewish law upon the Christian faith;70 but they themselves did not bring forward any uncorrupted copies.71 But I, thinking of corporeal things, very much ensnared and in a measure stifled, was oppressed by those masses;72 panting under which for the breath of Thy Truth, I was not able to breathe it pure and undefiled.

Chapter XII.猶rofessing Rhetoric at Rome, He Discovers the Fraud of His Scholars.

22. Then began I assiduously to practise that for which I came to Rome葉he teaching of rhetoric; and first to bring together at my home some to whom, and through whom, I had begun to be known; when, behold, I learnt that other offences were committed in Rome which I had not to bear in Africa. For those subvertings by abandoned young men were not practised here, as I had been informed; yet, suddenly, said they, to evade paying their master痴 fees, many of the youths conspire together, and remove themselves to another,傭reakers of faith, who, for the love of money, set a small value on justice. These also my heart 塗ated, though not with a 菟erfect hatred;73 for, perhaps, I hated them more in that I was to suffer by them, than for the illicit acts they committed. Such of a truth are base persons, and they are unfaithful to Thee, loving these transitory mockeries of temporal things, and vile gain, which begrimes the hand that lays hold on it; and embracing the fleeting world, and scorning Thee, who abidest, and invitest to return, and pardonest the prostituted human soul when it returneth to Thee. And now I hate such crooked and perverse men, although I love them if they are to be corrected so as to prefer the learning they obtain to money, and to learning. Thee, O God, the truth and fulness of certain good and most chaste peace. But then was the wish stronger in me for my own sake not to suffer them evil, than was the wish that they should become good for Thine.

30 Chapter XIII.幽e is Sent to Milan, that He, About to Teach Rhetoric, May Be Known by Ambrose.

23. When, therefore, they of Milan had sent to Rome to the prefect of the city, to provide them with a teacher of rhetoric for their city, and to despatch him at the public expense, I made interest through those identical persons, drunk with Manichaean vanities, to be freed from whom I was going away,溶either of us, however, being aware of it,葉hat Symmachus, the then prefect, having proved me by proposing a subject, would send me. And to Milan I came, unto Ambrose the bishop, known to the whole world as among the best of men, Thy devout servant; whose eloquent discourse did at that time strenuously dispense unto Thy people the flour of Thy wheat, the 堵ladness of Thy 登il, and the sober intoxication of Thy 努ine74 To him was I unknowingly led by Thee, that by him I might knowingly be led to Thee. That man of God received me like a father, and looked with a benevolent and episcopal kindliness on my change of abode. And I began to love him, not at first, indeed, as a teacher of the truth,謡hich I entirely despaired of in Thy Church,傭ut as a man friendly to myself. And I studiously hearkened to him preaching to the people, not with the motive I should, but, as it were, trying to discover whether his eloquence came up to the fame thereof, or flowed fuller or lower than was asserted; and I hung on his words intently, but of the matter I was but as a careless and contemptuous spectator; and I was delighted with the pleasantness of his speech, more erudite, yet less cheerful and soothing in manner, than that of Faustus. Of the matter, however, there could be no comparison; for the latter was straying amid Manichaean deceptions, whilst the former was teaching salvation most soundly. But 都alvation is far from the wicked,75 such as I then stood before him; and yet I was drawing nearer gradually and unconsciously.

Chapter XIV.幽aving Heard the Bishop, He Perceives the Force of the Catholic Faith, Yet Doubts, After the Manner of the Modern Academics.

24. For although I took no trouble to learn what he spake, but only to hear how he spake (for that empty care alone remained to me, despairing of a way accessible for man to Thee), yet, together with the words which I prized, there came into my mind also the things about which I was careless; for I could not separate them. And whilst I opened my heart to admit 塗ow skilfully he spake, there also entered with it, but gradually, 殿nd how truly he spake! For first, these things also had begun to appear to me to be defensible; and the Catholic faith, for which I had fancied nothing could be said against the attacks of the Manichaeans, I now conceived might be maintained without presumption; especially after I had heard one or two parts of the Old Testament explained, and often allegorically謡hich when I accepted literally, I was 徒illed spiritually.76 Many places, then, of those books having been expounded to me, I now blamed my despair in having believed that no reply could be made to those who hated and derided77 the Law and the Prophets. Yet I did not then see that for that reason the Catholic way was to be held because it had its learned advocates, who could at length, and not irrationally, answer objections; nor that what I held ought therefore to be condemned because both sides were equally defensible. For that way did not appear to me to be vanquished; nor yet did it seem to me to be victorious.

25. Hereupon did I earnestly bend my mind to see if in any way I could possibly prove the Manichaeans guilty of falsehood. Could I have realized a spiritual substance, all their strongholds would have been beaten down, and cast utterly out of my mind; but I could not. But vet, concerning the body of this world, and the whole of nature, which the senses of the flesh can attain unto, I, now more and more considering and comparing things, judged that the greater part of the philosophers held much the more probable opinions. So, then, after the manner of the Academics (as they are supposed),78 doubting of everything and fluctuating between all, I decided that the Manichaeans were to be abandoned; judging that, even while in that period of doubt, I could not remain in a sect to which I preferred some of the philosophers; to which philosophers, however, because they were without the saving name of Christ, I utterly refused to commit the cure of my fainting soul. I resolved, therefore, to be a catechumen79 in the Catholic Church, which my parents had commended to me, until something settled should manifest itself to me whither I might steer my course.80




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Ps 35,10,

2 (Ps xix.6.

284 3 St. Paul speaks of a 杜inding of the flesh and a 杜inding of the spirit (Rm 8,6, margin), and we are prone to be attracted and held by the carnal surroundings of life; that is, 賭uae per carnem sentiri querunt id est per oculos, per aures, ceterosque corporis sensus (De Vera Relig..xxiv).. But God would have us, as we meditate on the things that enter by the gates of the senses, to arise towards Him, through these His creatures. Our Father in heaven might have ordered His creation simply in a utilitarian way, letting, for example, hunger be satisfied without any of the pleasures of taste, and so of the other senses. But He has not so done. To every sense He has given its appropriate pleasure as well as its proper use. And though this presents to us a source of temptation, still ought we for it to praise His goodness to the full, and that corde are opere.唯radward, ii. c. 23. See also 1,sec. 1, note 3, and 4,sec. 18, above.

4 Augustin frequently recurs to the idea, that in God痴 overruling Providence, the foulness and sin of man does not disturb the order and fairness of the universe. He illustrates the idea by reference to music, painting, and oratory. 擢or as the beauty of a picture is increased by well-managed shadows, so, to the eye that has skill to discern it, the universe is beautified even by sinners, though, considered by themselves, their deformity is a sad blemish (De Civ. Dei, 11,23). So again, he says, God would never have created angels or men whose future wickedness he foreknew, unless He could turn them to the use of the good, 鍍hus embellishing the course of the ages as it were an exquisite poem set off with antitheses (
Rm 11,18); and further on, in the same section, 殿s the oppositions of contraries lend beauty to language, so the beauty of the course of this world is achieved by the opposition of contraries, arranged, as it were, by an eloquence not of words, but of things. These reflections affected Augustin痴 views as to the last things. They seemed to him to render the idea entertained by Origen (De Princ. 1,6) and other Fathers as to a general restoration [avpokatavstasi"] unnecessary. See Hagenbach痴 Hist. of Doct. etc. 1,383 (Clark)).

5 的n Scripture they are called God痴 enemies who oppose His rule not by nature but by vice, having no power to hurt Him, but only themselves. For they are His enemies not through their power to hurt, but by their will to oppose Him. For God is unchangeable, and wholly proof against injury (De Civ. Dei, xii. 3)).

6 (Ps 139,7,

7 (Gn 16,13-14.

8 (Sg 2,26). Old ver.

9 (He also refers to the injury man does himself by sin in 2,sec. 13, above; and elsewhere he suggests the law which underlies it: 典he vice which makes those who are called God痴 enemies resist Him, is an evil not to God but to themselves. And to them it is an evil solely because it corrupts the good of their nature. And when we suffer for our sins we should thank God that we are not unpunished (De Civ. Dei, 12,3). But if, when God punishes us, we still continue in our sin, we shall be more confirmed in habits of sin, and then, as Augustin in another place (in Ps 7,15) warns us, 登ur facility in sinning will be the punishment of God for our former yieldings to sin. See also Butler痴 Analogy, Pt. 1,ch. 5, 徹n a state of probation as intended for moral discipline and improvement.

10 (Ps 73,27).

11 (Sg 13,9 Sg 13,

12 (Ps cxxxviii 6.

13 (Ps 34,18, and 145,18.

285 14 See Book 4,sec. 19, note, above.

15 (He makes use of the same illustrations on Psalms 8,and xi., where the birds of the air represent the proud, the fishes of the sea those who have too great a curiosity, while the beasts of the field are those given to carnal pleasures. It will be seen that there correspondence between them and the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eye, and the pride of life, in
1Jn 2,16 1Jn 2, also above, Book iii. sec. 1Jn 16 and below, Book 10,sec. 1Jn 41, etc).

16 (Ps 8,7, 8).

17 (Dt 4,24 Dt 4,

18 (Jn 1,3 Jn 1,

19 (Ps 147,5, Vulg).

20 1Co 1,30

21 (Mt 17,27 Mt 17,

22 In Sermon 123, sec. 3, we have: 鼎hrist as God is the country to which we go佑hrist as man is the way by which we go. See note on Book 4,sec. 19, above.

23 (Is 14,13 Is 14,

24 (Ap 12,4).

286 25 (Rm 1,21 Rm 1,

26 Ibid.

27 (Rm 1,22 Rm 1,

28 (Rm 1,23).

29 (Rm 1 Rm 25).

30 What a contrast does his attitude here present to his supreme regard for secular learning before his conversion! We have constantly in his writings expressions of the same kind. On Psalm ciii. he dilates lovingly on the fount of happiness the word of God is, as compared with the writings of Cicero, Tully, and Plato; and again on Psalm 38,he shows that the word is the source of all true joy. So likewise in De Trin. iv. 1: 典hat mind is more praise-worthy which knows even its own weakness, than that which, without regard to this, searches out and even comes to know the ways of the stars, or which holds fast such knowledge already acquired, while ignorant of the way by which itself to enter into its own proper health and strength.Such a one has preferred to know his own weakness, rather than to know the walls of the world, the foundations of the earth, and the pinnacles of heaven. See iii. sec. 9, note, above.

31 (Rm 1,21 Rm 1,

32 (Pr 17,6, in the LXX.

33 (2Co 6,10 2Co 6,

34 (Sg 11,20 Sg 11,

35 (Jb 28,28 in LXX. reads: IdouV hJ qeosevbeiav ejsti sofiva).

287 36 This claim of Manichaeus was supported by referring to the Lord痴 promise (Jn 16,12, 13) to send the Holy Ghost, the Comforter, to guide the apostles into that truth which they were as yet 渡ot able to bear. The Manichaeans used the words 撤araclete and 鼎omforter, as indeed the names of the other two persons of the blessed Trinity, in a sense entirely different from that of the gospel. These terms were little more than the bodily frame, the soul of which was his own heretical belief. Whenever opposition appeared between that belief and the teaching of Scripture, their ready answer was that the Scriptures had been corrupted (De Mor. Ecc. Cath. 28,and xxix).; and in such a case, as we find Faustus contending (Con. Faust. 32,6), the Paraclete taught them what part to receive and what to reject, according to the promise of Jesus that He should 堵uide them into all truth, and much more to the same effect. Augustin痴 whole argument in reply is well worthy of attention. Amongst other things, he points out that the Manichaean pretension to having received the promised Paraclete was precisely the same as that of the Montanists in the previous century. It should be observed that Beausobre (Histoire, 1,254, 264, etc). vigorously rebuts the charge brought against Manichaeus of claiming to be the Holy Ghost. An interesting examination of the claims of Montanus will be found in Kaye痴 Tertullian, pp. 13 to 33).

37 (Ep 4,13, 14

38 See 6,sec. 12, note, below.

39 Sec. 7,sec. 15, below).

40 典his was the old fashion of the East, where the scholars had liberty to ask questions of their masters, and to move doubts as the professors were reading, or so soon as the lecture was done. Thus did our Saviour with the doctors (
Lc 2,46). So it is still in some European Universities.迫W. W).

41 We have referred in the note on iii. sec. 10, above, to the way in which the Manichaeans parodied Scripture names. In these 吐ables this is remarkably evidenced. 典o these filthy rags of yours, says Augustin (Con. Faust. 20,6), 土ou would unite the mystery of the Trinity; for you say that the Father dwells in a secret light, the power of the Son in the sun, and His wisdom in the moon, and the Holy Spirit in the air. The Manichaean doctrine as to the mixture of the divine nature with the substance of evil, and the way in which that nature was released by the 兎lect, has already been pointed out (see (note 3,sec. 18, above). The part of sun and moon, also, in accomplishing this release, is alluded to in his De Mor. Manich. 典his part of God, he says (c. xxxvi)., 妬s daily being set free in all parts of the world, and restored to its own domain. But in its passage upwards as vapour from earth to heaven, it enters plants, because their roots are fixed in the earth, and so gives fertility and strength to all herbs and shrubs. These parts of God, arrested in their rise by the vegetable world, were released, as above stated, by the 兎lect. All that escaped from them in the act of eating, as well as what was set free by evaporation, passed into the sun and moon, as into a kind of purgatorial state葉hey being purer light than the only recently emancipated good nature. In his letter to Januarius (Ep. lv. 6), he tells us that the moon痴 waxing and waning were said by the Manichaeans to be caused by its receiving souls from matter as it were into a ship, and transferring them 妬nto the sun as into another ship. The sun was called Christ, and was worshipped; and accordingly we find Augustin, after alluding to these monstrous doctrines, saying (Con. Faust. 5,11): 的f your affections were set upon spiritual and intellectual good instead of material forms, you would not pay homage to the material sun as a divine substance and as the light of wisdom. Many other interesting quotations might be added, but we must content ourselves with the following. In his Reply to Faustus (xx. 6), he says: 添ou call the sun a ship, so that you are not only astray worlds off, as the saying is, but adrift. Next, while every one sees that the sun is round, which is the form corresponding from its perfection to his position among the heavenly bodies, you maintain that he is triangular [perhaps in allusion to the early symbol of the Trinity]; that is, that his light shines on the earth through a triangular window in heaven. Hence it is that you bend and bow your heads to the sun, while you worship not this visible sun, but some imaginary ship, which you suppose to be shining through a triangular opening).

42 (Jl 2,26 Jl 2,

43 (Ps 37,23).

44 See 3,sec. 6, note, above.

45 (Ps cxlii. 5).

46 See 6,sec. 2, note, below.

47 1Co 15,22).

288 48 (Ep 2,15, and Col 1,20, etc).

49 The Manichaean belief in regard to the unreal nature of Christ痴 body may be gathered from Augustin痴 Reply to Faustus: 添ou ask, argues Faustus (xxvi. i)., 妬f Jesus was not born, how did He die?In return I ask you, how did Elias not die, though he was a man? Could a mortal encroach upon the limits of immortality, and could not Christ add to His immortality whatever experience of death was required? Accordingly, if it is a good argument that Jesus was a man because He died, it is an equally good argument that Elias was not a man because he did not die. As, from the outset of His taking the likeness of man, He underwent in appearance all the experiences of humanity, it was quite consistent that He should complete the system by appearing to die. So that with him the whole life of Jesus was a 菟hantasm. His birth, circumcision, crucifixion, baptism, and temptation were (
Col 32,7) the mere result of the interpolation of crafty men, or sprung from the ignorance of the apostles, when as yet they had not reached perfection in knowledge. It is noticeable that Augustin, referring to Ep 2,15, substitutes His cross for His flesh, he, as a Manichaean, not believing in the real humanity of the Son of God. See 3,sec. 9, note, above.

50 See 1,sec. 10, above.

51 See also 4,sec. 8, above, where he derides his friend痴 baptism).

52 (Ps 51,19

53 1Tm 5,10

54 Watts gives the following note here:欄Oblations were those offerings of bread, meal, or wine, for making of the Eucharist, or of alms besides for the poor, which the primitive Christians every time they communicated brought to the church, where it was received by the deacons, who presented them to the priest or bishop. Here note: (1) They communicated daily; (2) they had service morning and evening, and two sermons a day many times, etc. An interesting trace of an old use in this matter of oblations is found in the Queen痴 Coronation Service. After other oblations had been offered, the Queen knelt before the Archbishop and presented to him 登blations of bread and wine for the Holy Communion. See also Palmer痴 Origines Liturgicae, 4,8, who demonstrates by reference to patristic writers that the custom was universal in the primitive Church:欄But though all the churches of the East and West agreed in this respect, they differed in appointing the time and place at which the oblations of the people were received. It would appear from the following account of early Christian worship, that in the time of Justin Martyr the oblations were collected after the reception of the Lord痴 Supper. In his First Apology we read (c. lxvii).: 徹n the day called Sunday [tou` hJlivou legohevnh hJmevra,] all who live in cities or in the country gather together to one place, and the memoirs of the apostles or the writings of the prophets are read, as long as time permits them. When the reader has ceased, the president [oJ proestwV"] verbally instructs, and exhorts to the imitation of these good things. Then we all rise together and pray [eujcaV" pevmpomen], and, as we before said, when our prayer is ended, bread and wine and water are brought, and the president in like manner offers prayers and thanksgivings according to his ability [Kaye renders (p. 89) eujcaV" oJmoiw" kaiV eujcaristia" o殱h suvnami" aujtw`, avnapevmpei, 努ith his utmost power脳, and the people assent, saying Amen; and there is a distribution to each, and a participation of that over which thanks had been given, and to those who are absent a portion is sent by the deacons. And they who are well-to-do, and willing, give what each thinks fit; and what is collected [toV sullegovmeno[; is deposited with the president, who succours the orphans and widows, and those who, through sickness or any other cause, are in want, and those who are in bonds, and the stranger sojourning among us, and, in a word, takes care of all who are in need. The whole passage is given, as portions of it will be found to have a bearing on other parts of the Confessions.Bishop Kaye痴 Justin Martyr, c. iv., may be referred to for his view of the controverted points in the passage. See also Bingham痴 Antiquities, ii. 2-9; and notes to 6,sec. 2, and 9,secs. 6 and 27, below).

55 See above, 3,11, 12.

56 Ibid. 3,12.

57 (Lc 2,19 Lc 2,

58 (Ps 118,1).

289 59 See 4,sec. 1, note, above).

60 iv. sec. 26, note 2, above).

61 (
Ps 41,4 Ps 41,

62 (Ps 141,3, 4, Old Vers. See also Augustin痴 Commentary on the Psalms, where, using his Septuagint version, he applies this passage to the Manichaeans).

63 鄭mongst these philosophers, i.e. those who have founded their systems on denial, 都ome are satisfied with denying certainty, admitting at the same time probability, and these are the New Academics; the others, who are the Pyrrhonists, have denied even this probability, and have maintained that all things are equally certain and uncertain (Port. Roy. Log. 4,1). There are, according to the usual divisions, three Academies, the old, the middle, and the new; and some subdivide the middle and the new each into two schools, making five schools of thought in all. These begin with Plato, the founder (387 B. C.), and continue to the fifth school, founded by Antiochus (83 B. C.), who, by combining his teachings with that of Aristotle and Zeno, prepared the way for Neo-Platonism and its development of the dogmatic side of Plato痴 teaching. In the second Academic school, founded by Arcesilas,熔f whom Aristo, the Stoic, parodying the line in the Iliad (vi. 181), IIrovsqe levwn, o殫iqen deV dravkwn, mevssh deV cimaira, said sarcastically he was 撤lato in front, Pyrrho behind, and Diodorus in the middle,迫the 都ceptical tendency in Platonism began to develope itself, which, under Carneades, was expanded into the doctrine of the third Academic school. Arcesilas had been a pupil of Polemo when he was head of the old Academy. Zeno also, dissatisfied with the cynical philosophy of Crates, had learnt Platonic doctrine from Polemo, and was, as Cicero tells us (De Fin. 4,16), greatly influenced by his teaching. Zeno, however, soon founded his own school of Stoical philosophy, which was violently opposed by Arcesilas (Cicero, Acad. Post. 1,12). Arcesilas, according to Cicero (), taught his pupils that we cannot know anything, not even that we are unable to know. It is exceedingly probable, however, that he taught esoterically the doctrines of Plato to those of his pupils he thought able to receive them, keeping them back from the multitude because of the prevalence of the new doctrine. This appears to have been Augustin痴 view when he had arrived at a fuller knowledge of their doctrines than that he possessed at the time referred to in his Confessions. In his treatises against the Academicians (iii. 17) he maintains the wisdom of Arcesilas in this matter. He says: 鄭s the multitude are prone to rush into false opinions, and, from being accustomed to bodies, readily, but to their hurt, believe everything to be corporeal, this most acute and learned man determined rather to unteach those who had suffered from bad teaching, than to teach those whom he did not think teachable. Again, in the first of his Letters, alluding to these treatises, he says: 的t seems to me to be suitable enough to the times in which they flourished, that whatever issued pure from the fountain-head of Platonic philosophy should be rather conducted into dark and thorny thickets for the refreshment of a very few men, than left to flow in open meadow-land, where it would be impossible to keep it clear and pure from the inroads of the vulgar herd. I use the word 蘇erd0 advisedly, for what is more brutish than the opinion that the soul is material? and more to the same purpose. In his De Civ. Dei, xix 18, he contrasts the uncertainty ascribed to the doctrines of these teachers with the certainty of the Christian faith. See Burton痴 Bampton Lectures, note 33, and Archer Butler痴 Ancient Philosophy, 2,313, 348, etc. See also 7,sec. 13, note, below.

64 See 3,sec. 21, above.`

65 See 4,secs. 3, 12, and 31, above).

66 See 4,26, note 2, above.

67 See above, sec. 12, note.

68 The dualistic belief of the Manichaean ever led him to contend that Christ only appeared in a resemblance of flesh, and did not touch its substance so as to be defiled. Hence Faustus characteristically speaks of the Incarnation (Con. Faust. 32,7) as 鍍he shameful birth of Jesus from a woman, and when pressed (ibid. xi 1) with such passages as, Christ was 澱orn of the seed of David according to the flesh (Rm 1,3), he would fall back upon what in these days we are familiar with as that 塗igher criticism, which rejects such parts of Scripture as it is inconvenient to receive. Paul, he said, then only 都poke as a child (I Cor. xiii. 11), but when he became a man in doctrine, he put away childish things, and then declared, 典hough we have known Christ after the flesh, yet now henceforth know we Him no more. See above, sec. 16, note 3).

69 See 3,sec. 14, above.

290 70 On this matter reference may be made to Con. Faust. 18,1, 3; 19,5, 6; 33,1, 3).

71 They might well not like to give the answer in public, for, as Augustin remarks (De Mor. Qo Cath. sec. 14), every one could see 鍍hat this is all that is left for men to say when it is proved that they are wrong. The astonishment that he experienced now, that they did 渡ot bring forward any uncorrupted copies, had fast hold of him, and after his conversion he confronted them on this very ground. 添ou ought to bring forward, he says (ibid. sec. 61), 殿nother manuscript with the same contents, but incorrupt and more correct, with only the passage wanting which you charge with being spurious.You say you will not, lest you be suspected of corrupting it. This is your usual reply, and a true one. See also De Mor. Manich. sec. 55; and Con. Faust. 11,2, 13,5, 18,7, 22,15, 32,16).

72 See above, sec. 19, Fin.).

73 (
Ps 139,22

74 (Ps 4,7, and 104,15.

75 (Ps 119,155 Ps 119,

76 1Co 13,12, and 2Co 3,6. See 6,sec. 6, note, below.

77 (He frequently alludes to this scoffing spirit, so characteristic of these heretics. As an example, he says (in Ps 146,13): 典here has sprung up a certain accursed sect of the Manichaeans which derides the Scriptures it takes and reads. It wishes to censure what it does not understand, and by disturbing and censuring what it understands not, has deceived many. See also sec. 16, and 4,sec. 8, above).

78 See above, sec. 19, and note.

79 See 6,sec. 2, note, below.

80 In his Benefit of Believing, Augustin adverts to the above experiences with a view to the conviction of his friend Honoratus, who was then a Manichaean).




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